This is not your experience. I must stress before you read this that not everyone experiences such a visual journey as I have. Please if you decide to try Kundalini go in with an open mind, and surrender yourself. Don’t have expectations, just enjoy the ride and see what happens. The energy gives you what you NEED, not what you WANT. However, I want to share my visuals and experiences with you, they may seem far-fetched but it is my truth. Be open-minded and imagine how I must have felt receiving these visions. I felt like I couldn’t even make this stuff up. I didn’t have strong visuals every session though. I found that some sessions were really strong some showed me flashes and some I didn’t have visuals at all but the session was still amazing every time.
“When we awaken to our truth, we realize we are free.” – Kristi Bowman, Journey to One, A Womans Story of Emotional Healing and Spiritual Awakening.
session 1
On my first kundalini awakening, I had no idea what I was going for or what it was. I hadn’t done any research. We saw an advert about it and it sounded good, we knew it was related to reiki but that was all. On the first occasion, I was unable to go but a few people I know did. They told me it was amazing and I had to do it but not much else, I like that kinda thing so I wanted to try it.
The woman talked about all the different things that could potentially happen when we got there and explained we were best to try and submit to the energy and to keep our eyes closed throughout. So we all lay down in a circle and she softly spoke a deep relaxation speech to put us in a meditated state.
Suddenly, the music started very loud, primal music. Imagine my surprise when immediately my body began to shake starting from my bottom and legs. I told myself this was normal as she said this could happen to some people. So I tried to calm myself and relax into it. I was fully aware of my shaking for the entire hour I was there. Sometimes it would change slightly to a side-to-side movement (snake-like). And sometimes it would calm and I’d relax when suddenly I was shaking again. I do not mean a little either. It was like I was having a seizure. My eyelids were even shaking. It was scary!
Why didn’t I just open my eyes and stop? Because it was also incredible. I have always been able to see amazing visuals when I’ve meditated or done reiki (which isn’t much) just like I dream vividly and lucidly very often. I see these things as sometimes being messages from the subconscious. Sometimes they even relate to the future. So I pay attention. I have always seen amazing things but this was the strongest visual I have ever had. So I’m going to tell you about what I saw and hope you don’t think I’m crazy. We will then continue onto the rest of my kundalini journey because it only got crazier. There is no way I could have made this stuff up as I didn’t know what I was doing.
In the beginning, I saw a girl on a hill facing away from me, I got this overwhelming sense that she was about to go on an important journey. Then she was gone. I was in a jungle. As I journeyed through I saw an owl flying from a tree and I saw a white tiger with blue eyes staring at me through the leaves of the jungle. I walked through a flowing blue stream or a river of water. I ended up in some kind of tribal village camp. People were drumming etc and dancing very strangely around a fire with little huts behind them and primal-type clothes on. It felt very caveman (maybe slightly more advanced, I don’t know). I was there for a while watching the people and the fire. Suddenly I saw a woman, I thought it was the woman from the hill, she was calling for me and I went to her. She was dancing with a snake around her shoulders. Suddenly, we were journeying through the jungle together. I followed and followed her until we reached the hill that I vaguely saw at the beginning. Then I looked around at where I was. The grass was a beautiful green on this hill and ahead of me to my left, there was two enormous grey mountains with snow on the peaks and ahead were hills and a black sky filled with billions of bright stars, even shooting stars. The jungle was to my right. I could see me and this goddess-like Amazon woman together on this hill looking at the scene. It was the feeling I got at that moment. It was an overwhelming sensation that made me physically cry but of happiness. I felt like I was home. The music began to settle and I journeyed backwards the way I came but not as myself. On my way out I became the wind, the grass, the water in the river the fire crackling in the camp. Like I had become the elements themselves. The final thing I saw was a tunnel, like a dark cave that I was rushing through, and the meditation came to an end.
I explained briefly about my experience but it is difficult to explain something like that. I was still emotional afterwards. Keep in mind I’d been shaking violently throughout the process and was fully aware of what my body was doing. I could still hear the other people around me too. Usually, when I’ve had visuals they’ve been changeable like a dream but this wasn’t. I have to admit I was kinda freaked out.
I went home feeling completely wired and yet exhausted at the same time. I was exhausted for the next week afterwards. I wasn’t sure whether to go again the week after because I thought I couldn’t possibly put myself through that each week and make myself that exhausted. Although it was incredible, I had to live my life too. However, I spoke to a friend (my fitness instructor) and she thought that maybe it’s like exercise and suggested that you’re better off doing it again rather than leaving it. I thought about it all week and decided I would chance going to see it her theory proved right. Also, I had started noticing that I felt so blissful throughout the week. Everything seemed brighter and sharper and I felt Happier inside. So I decided I would try again.
session 2
The following week I went again, this time I didn’t see anything other than some shapes and colours. My body jerked and moved like dance movements that I couldn’t control. I saw a wolf with blue flames as fur and a phoenix a couple of times throughout the session. I felt peaceful and calm and I enjoyed the experience. But after a week of worrying that every experience was going to be as powerful and draining as the first, I thought that maybe I was holding myself back. When I left I felt rather disappointed. I mean I know I don’t want a powerful one every time because it drained my energy too much but I knew I was holding back due to fear and that’s what disappointed me. To go from something so powerful to something so little. I decided I needed to do it again.
session 3
During this session, my body moved and jerked about. Slightly more shaky than the previous session but not out of control. I surrendered myself to my kundalini and waited to see what it showed me. This week was rather dark. It felt like I was running through pitch-black tunnels for the first part. At one point I saw a demon-type figure and tried to shut it out. Suddenly, it felt like I was lying down looking up at a blue sky. I could see someone with me. But they were just a white glowing shadow, but I was aware of their presence. I wasn’t too fazed by it at the time and just continued to see what I was supposed to see but it was a difficult one to figure out. At the end of the session when we shared our experience my friend Gemma went first who was sat next to me. She said “It was really dark, and I saw the devil”, well I was freaked out. We went around the group to hear the others’ experiences and got to me last. I was like what the hell, mine was dark and I saw a demon-type figure like the devil, and the weirdest part was I knew I was with someone. I have come to believe that we may be able to physically piggyback on others’ experiences.
session 4
This session was a big one for me. At first, my visuals were flashing colours and shapes. I was just enjoying the experience when about halfway through it felt like I was a bird flying through the sky, then through space. Suddenly, I was stationary somewhere and I saw time move before my eyes at super speed from that one spot. I didn’t recognise it at all. I saw buildings go up, come down, different buildings go up and so on. (Similar to when you see time speed on television in a city landscape). Then I saw a woman running through a medieval type village or town. I saw her standing on a wooden bridge with all these men around her. I got really hot in my physical body. I got the sense that this was a witch trial or something and I thought I was about to see her be burnt at the stake. Then suddenly she fell and she was in the water. I could see through her eyes. She was tied up and struggled, she was scared and angry. I could see the light from the bridge from under the water. I felt sad and angry with her. But this is where it got really weird, I grabbed her hand and took her with me. We went to that place I saw in my first kundalini session. The hill that felt like home. I could see myself, the woman who had drowned and the Tribal woman from my first session all standing there together. That was the end and that’s the first time I came out of the session feeling angry. I was fuming, which really sounds stupid as it’s just a vision but what if there’s more to it? I got the feeling that I was seeing a past life. I saw her death through her eyes and I took her home. The anger faded pretty soon afterwards in fact the next day I felt more relaxed and at peace than ever. Another point of this is I have always had a fear of water, I can’t swim in deep water, and I don’t like water parks. I do like to swim and stuff but I have always had the fear so how bizarre that I was shown this woman that drowned. Perhaps my own fear stems from a memory from a past life. I read a book afterwards called “Many Lives Many Masters” that touches on this exact experience.
session 5
The following session was strong again, I was beginning to relax into the meditation and let it take me where I needed to go. You can never know what is going to happen. This time was the first time I made noise during the session (apparently it’s something that needs to happen, part of the process. It’s a way of releasing). However, I didn’t feel like I was releasing anything from my past. During all my sessions so far I have felt like I was moving forward on a journey. I suppose a spiritual path. So, during this session, my visuals showed me a jungle again. It was different than the first one, yet similar in the primal feeling. I saw another woman, an African woman with red Mohawk hair. She was a hunter and had a spear. I could see her creeping through the trees searching for pray. I could see the camp again, tribe people celebrating and dancing around a fire. Drumming bongo-type drums and dancing with their weapons. Then I was gone. I saw a bright blinding white light and lots of colour started to pour in. Then I saw another woman in the light. She looked like a goddess. Similar clothes to Princess Jasmine from Aladdin. But white and gold. Hair and makeup like Cleopatra and a multicoloured eagle helmet. She was dancing in the white light. This was the point where I started to let noise leave my mouth, I felt hot but I was just enjoying it and watching what I was shown, so no idea why I was making noise at all. It’s not easy to understand, like depicting a dream (a very vivid dream). Right at the end, I saw a man. A very bulky black man that I’ve never seen before. Lots of images came to me of him, snapshots like Live Photos. He was a boxer with red shorts and red gloves. That was it. I don’t know who it was or why I saw him but there you go. This Kundalini business is a mystery.
session 6
The next session was the most profound and strongest. Even more so than my first one. However, by this point it wasn’t taking me by surprise anymore I knew what to expect, I’d had several sessions by this point to build me up to here and prepare me. Even thinking about this session gives me goosebumps and makes me sad. It shouldn’t make me sad because that’s just silly but it does. At the start, I seemed to be flying through space and time seeking where I was meant to be but I felt lost. Suddenly, I was in some kind of temple with a monk (like a Buddhist Monk). Lots of stone and colours of red and gold. I was kneeling in front of a gold-patterned bowl. He encouraged me to drink from the bowl. We travelled together up and down these stone uneven steps that seemed very old. This was outside. We were on a mountain or large hill there was grass all around us and people working in the fields. We walked far. We arrived at a large tree and he sat with his legs crossed in front of the tree. I did the same in front of him facing him and the tree. It was like I was on a loop. Like I was repeating the same thing over and over. Like a ritual. During the vision, he was growing older. It was almost like I was with him his whole life in the space of an hour. But get this, he was talking to me. We were speaking to each other. He told me that I am like a tree, with many roots and many branches. He said that I need to ground myself and become as stable as a tree and remember that all the roots and branches are a part of me and what make me who I am. Riddles! I can’t remember all of it. I remember being a bit cheeky back and asking questions. He kept calling me child. “You must listen, child”. Things like that. But I know the main concept was about a tree. I was with him until he died old and peaceful. I started crying at this point. In which he told me “Don’t be ridiculous child”. I reflected on this vision a lot after this session. Who was he? I don’t know. I sensed that he was my teacher, perhaps a spiritual guide. I know it sounds daft because isn’t this just all in my head but what if there’s more to it than that? I felt saddened and his loss truly grieved me. I’m not crazy. It didn’t affect my daily life, I am not going to tell any random person because I know how it sounds. That session wiped me out for two weeks. I was trying to understand what I was seeing and why. Who was the monk? had anyone else had an experience similar before? I couldn’t find anything online. I did learn a bit about Buddhism and the significance of a tree, which I didn’t know anything about beforehand. Which was super interesting and enlightening. But I spent that whole hour in the same place with the same person. how is that possible? Twice that has happened now and I thought visions were like dreams always moving and changing but these were deep and meaningful and felt so real.
session 7
I had felt out of sorts from my previous session for two weeks. Eventually, there was another session available. I needed to go just to get past this and get my energy back into alignment, I know that sounds strange, but I had learnt that some sessions gave me bounds of energy and after really strong ones my body needed rest, I found that if I had another session during these tiring fazes then I would get my energy back. This next session was great. I finally had a creative experience. I had an idea for a children’s fantasy book that I wanted to write but I hadn’t had time to really think about it lately. I had a visual of this world. I could see the characters as clear as day. I hadn’t even got as far as thinking what they were going to look like or what this magical world was going to look like. I had a simple idea of a storyline. But I saw so much. It was cool and I came out feeling super inspired. The next day I found myself writing nonstop.
session 8
Wrapping Up
As stated at the beginning. This is my Kundalini experience. You must go with an open mind and have zero expectations. However, I am sure you will have an amazing experience either way. This is a profound experience that will transform you from the inside out. You must be ready and you must be brave to go through this transformation. This is only my journal of my actual sessions that I wrote for myself so that I could remember what I saw and felt. Most of the transformation starts outside of the sessions. Once you start Kundalini it is recommended to continue as one or two sessions won’t completely transform your life. You will feel the difference within yourself but you can easily fall back into the same patterns.
This whole experience has led me to train to become a Kundalini facilitator. My experience was so powerful and has transformed me so much that I needed to be able to give people this too. I always wanted to work in a job where I helped people and I feel that this is what I was always meant to do.